Thursday, November 26, 2009

..

something ain't right again..
something's bugging me..

i wrote this before today's management lecture started

Take time to realise things that are close to you;
things that you treasure;
things that you sometimes forget;
things that you see;
they are not always there to tell you what you are to do..
you yourself have to know what to do..
in everything you do, put Him first
talk to Him, tell Him, cry out to Him
Always

~me am lost~

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Sometimes

Sometimes my heart calls out for something
Sometimes, during those sometimes I dismiss them
Sometimes it breaks into pieces for reasons i don't know
Sometimes, I fail to pick all of them up
Sometimes I fall
Sometimes I rather stay down then climbing back up
Sometimes unknown forces causes me to think thoughts that hurt myself and others
Sometimes I let it be
Sometimes I think it is wise to keep a distance from society
Sometimes I feel alone
Sometimes loneliness overcomes me eventhough I am not alone
Sometimes I feel like an evil person
Sometimes I cry because of that
Sometimes I just want to give up
Sometimes I am lazy to think beyond
Sometimes I keep quiet.. It shows something..
Sometimes I am selfish.. rather most of the time when it comes to certain things
Sometimes I look out the window and wonder why am I here
Sometimes it kills me to think that I want my way and I don't feel good about it..
Sometimes when I am alone, sad thoughts come to mind
Sometimes.. I want to..

Friday, November 20, 2009

....??

EVERYTIME

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby



~saddening~

Thursday, November 19, 2009

wrong?

something aint right no more..
something aint the same anymore..
stoning is the way for me now..
in times like this.. like what?
I've got no idea
have no idea what am really thinking..
wonder why feel happy
then feel sad
or emo
or something.
lol.. sad case..
weeeee...........

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

It just happened

I've got no idea what happened man..

It was so sudden
It came for half an hour
It then left me
It messed up my heart beat
It made my heart beat weird again
It made me feel uncomfortable
It sadden me
It ruined my mood
It is not good
It left me puffy eyed
It made my eyes tired

Monday, November 16, 2009

Thoughts

My thoughts are becoming a burden to me nowadays..

It so does not make my day, making feel low..

No mood... Lost of appetite when i think about it..

Sigh.. this stinks, I can't even bring myself to talk about it.

I know I'm making people who cares for me worry about me, but I can't help it.. I don't feel good talking about it I guess.. especially if you know what is going through my mind... It ain't nice.. in fact it would hurt hearts..

Am a bad person at times =(



*sorry for emo-ness.. but as said earlier.. can't help it*

Song


Falling Up from Fearless

Empty house far away
Lost in lonely space
You know you've felt the same
From the shallows in love
To the depths of your scars
You know you want to change
In the rafters, a vate
Fixed and spinning late
There's a certain fear
Even light with control
Lights outside our homes
Wait for every tear

So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart
So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart

I found a way out
Through everything I've known
I'm walking fearless
With my faith down and all that I own
Don't take my picture
Cause I won't be there standing alone
I'm living fearless, so fearless
Like every day's my own

Steady hands in the planes
Calculated ways
To call it ailing in figure
Hearts far away
When you work so late
From a distant end

So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart
So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart
And now it's over
Before your heart
And now it's over
Before your heart

Call it what you want it, Call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices

[Rapped during previous part]
I'm calling from the back of your mind
From the places you'll never reside
Where your thoughts collide
See places and thousands of faces
All at the same time
Look, everybody close your eyes
Travel to the place in the back of your mind
The place you'll never reside
Where thoughts combine
See places and thousands of faces
All at the same time
All at the same time
All at the same time




~Calvin Nanthan introduced this song to me.. and me likey XD
he also let me hear starstruck - 3oh!3 feat Katy Perry :D

thx ya.. ^^

Friday, November 13, 2009

??

Am thinking a lot these days... don't know why...

Is it a good thing? Or is it bad?

I've thinking about my life, things going around me..

Just don't know what's going on in my mind anymore..

Too mind blowing eh? For me..

Bla bla bla...

Am stoning again... been doing that a lot too

Monday, November 9, 2009

me likey


Belle coloured this for me quite some time ago =D



Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Careful

My brother, Shawn was playing football/soccer and dislocated and fractures his right wrist!!!!

He's been hospitalized.. >.<

Hope that he heals fast and not to stay there long..

Called my mum yesterday when my other brother, Shannon sms-ed me telling me the news.. At first i thought it was a joke..

Then at that time, my mum was at the hospital with Shawn so I talked to him over the phone. It was another SHOCK for me.. >.>

Told him to be careful and not to fret XD


one of the Lesson learnt from CF yesterday = be teachable

Monday, November 2, 2009

Live life

I opened my wallet,
found it empty..

reached in my pocket,
found few coins,

searched my heart,
and found U,
our friendship..

then I realized thank GOD : How rich I am!


May God bless u always.

Appreciate things in life.. you never know what might happen next..

Things happen.. when u're unaware

To just start to know someone and the next thing you know, he's gone the following week..

The plans that you thought that you could have done together to get to know him better.. with frens and then get to know a senior better...

All came crashing down today when I saw the news about James Khor and friends who has passed on..

May we all take a time of silence and pray fot the ones that are still alive and are in shock and for their loved ones that they may be able to accept and stay strong and have the courage to face the world once again..

Rest in peace James.. I've yet to know you that well but i will always remember you..
Rest in peace Shy Gin.. I may not know you but you are in everybody's heart.. to be remembered...
Ghim Chnieh.. I hope that you are fine.. I have no idea where you are.. but God knows..



Prayer helps in times like this.. O Lord..
be with all who are in pain.. and are in need of You.. help them and guide them..

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Messages


A Friend is a Book with only1 copy published.

You are 1 of the Best books ever written













A masterpiece










worth reading million times and to be kept forever...


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

CF meeting

today is the first CF meeting of the trimester..

we had an 'exam' (LOL)....

then we got to see few video clips from the recent CF camp.. it was hilarious XD

things i've missed because I didn't go for the camp.... >.>

Pink shirts, scary bird, and others XD

Birthday....

It couldn't have gone any better... lol
had an early birthday wish from Stephanie.. then the rest of the wishes came one by one.. LOL

then at night at about 12am, few friends gave me a birthday surprise =)

they were Shu Ern, Kyle, Gale, Melissa, Felicia and Calvin~~ lol

they bought a banana chocolate cake XD and we had cake XD

then when Shu came back, he asked bout the BANANA cake.. ~~
something bout whether i put the banana in my ear...>.>

from Charlie~ put a banana in your ear.. put a ripe banana right into your favourite ear~~

XD